We should meditate only on ‘I’, not on ideas such as ‘I am brahman’
Each of the four Vēdas contains a mahāvākya or ‘great saying’ that asserts that ‘I’ is brahman, the one infinite and absolute reality. The mahāvākya of the Ṛg Vēda is ‘prajñānaṁ brahma’, which means ‘pure consciousness is brahman’ (Aitarēya Upaniṣad 3.3); that of the Yajur Vēda is ‘ahaṁ brahmāsmi’, which means ‘I am brahman’ (Bṛhadāraṇyaka Upaniṣad 1.4.10); that of the Sāma Vēda is ‘tat tvam asi’, which means ‘it [brahman] you are’ (Chāndōgya Upaniṣad 6.8.7); and that of the Atharva Vēda is ‘ayaṁ ātmā brahma’, which means ‘this self is brahman’ (Māṇḍūkya Upaniṣad 2).
For hundreds of years a widely prevalent belief among those who have studied advaita vēdānta has been that meditating on these mahāvākyas, particularly ahaṁ brahmāsmi (I am brahman), or on words that convey the same meaning, such as sōham (he is I), is the means by which we can experience brahman. However Sri Ramana repudiated this mistaken belief, and explained that when these mahāvākyas assert that ‘I’ is brahman, we should understand that in order to experience brahman we must experience what this ‘I’ actually is, and that in order to experience this we must investigate this ‘I’, attending to it exclusively and thereby ignoring all thoughts or ideas: that is, everything other than it.
A friend wrote to me recently asking why Sri Ramana advised his devotees to meditate on self but not to meditate on any of the mahāvākyas such as ahaṁ brahmāsmi or ‘I am brahman’, and added: ‘Since Brahman is Self, I have not understood the reasons for his disapproval of this form of meditation. Perhaps you could throw light on this point’. The following is adapted from the reply I wrote to him:
Mahāvākyas such as ahaṁ brahmāsmi are useful ideas, but just ideas nevertheless, whereas ‘I’ is that which experiences all ideas. We each experienced ‘I am’ even before we ever heard of the idea ahaṁ brahmāsmi, and whether or not we are thinking this idea, we always experience ‘I am’. Therefore ‘I’ or ‘I am’ is distinct from the idea ahaṁ brahmāsmi, just as it is distinct from all other ideas or thoughts, so if we are to experience ‘I’ in complete isolation from everything else, we should not be thinking ‘ahaṁ brahmāsmi’.
Though ahaṁ brahmāsmi is just one among the numerous ideas that we think during our life, why is it a useful idea? Before we come to the spiritual path most of us have some idea about God or brahman, and we think that God or brahman is the greatest of all things and therefore something quite different from ourself. This attitude towards God or brahman is what Bhagavan calls anya-bhāva (the attitude that God or brahman is something other than ‘I’), and in verse 8 of Upadēśa Undiyār he teaches us that rather than such anya-bhāva, ananya-bhāva (the attitude that God or brahman is nothing other than ‘I’) is the best form of bhakti (devotion) or best attitude towards God:
That is, if we want to truly meditate on God or brahman, we must stop thinking of him or it at all, and must instead direct our entire attention towards ‘I’ alone. Since neither God nor brahman can be a mere thought, idea or belief, and since he or it is nothing other than ‘I’, in order to experience him or it as he or it really is, we must experience ‘I’ as it actually is, and must therefore investigate ‘I’ by attending to it alone.
So long as we think of or meditate upon the idea of God or brahman, we are reducing them to mere thoughts or ideas, and thus we are making them something other than ‘I’, even though ‘I’ is all that they really are. That is, like any other thought or idea, the thought or idea of God or brahman is something other than ‘I’, so if we meditate upon that thought or idea, or even upon the thought or idea ahaṁ brahmāsmi (‘I am brahman’ or ‘I am God’), we are meditating on something other than ‘I’, and so long as we are meditating only anything other than ‘I’ we cannot experience what this ‘I’ actually is (who am I or what is brahman).
As Sri Ramana says in verse 27 of Uḷḷadu Nāṟpadu:
In verses 29, 32 and 36 of Uḷḷadu Nāṟpadu he explains this further:
Though meditating ‘I am brahman’ may help us to direct part of our attention towards ‘I’, it will at best divide our attention between ‘I’ and our idea of brahman, whereas what is required is for us to fix our entire attention unswervingly on ‘I’ alone. Moreover, if we think ‘I am brahman’, the ‘I’ in this thought is our ego, because whatever thinks ‘I am this’ or ‘I am that’ is the ego, and Sri Ramana says that even this ego is just a thought or idea, albeit an idea that contains an element of reality.
That is, the ego is the idea ‘I am this body’, the cit-jaḍa-granthi or knot that binds the conscious (cit) to the non-conscious (jaḍa), and the element of reality in this idea is the ‘I’, which is what is conscious (cit), whereas its unreal element is the body, which is just physical matter and hence non-conscious (jaḍa). Since we now mistakenly experience ‘I’ as a physical body, if we think ‘I am brahman’ we will in effect be confusing brahman with a body-bound ‘I’ or ego. Therefore we cannot experience what brahman really is so long as this ego thinks ‘I am brahman’.
If we meditate only on ‘I’, we will thereby separate it from all thoughts or ideas, whereas if we meditate on the idea ‘I am brahman’, we will thereby be perpetuating the delusive connection between ‘I’ and thoughts. Therefore, when we meditate on the idea ‘I am brahman’, we are reducing both ‘I’ and ‘brahman’ to the level of mere thoughts. That is, in the thought ‘I am brahman’, both the ‘I’ and the ‘brahman’ are mere thoughts or ideas, so we are just mentally equating one idea with another. How can such a mental activity be a means to experience brahman, the one infinite reality, which is beyond the reach of any thought?
Therefore, without giving even the least room to the rising of any thought (even the thought of God or brahman), we should meditate only on ‘I’, the source from which all thoughts arise.
After I wrote this, my friend replied, ‘I now fully understand why Ramana Maharshi suggested mediation on I, but not on Brahman. Although the Self and Brahman are synonymous from one point of view, I realise there is a subtle difference between the two, when viewed from the perspective of Self-enquiry’, to which I replied:
There is actually absolutely no difference between self and brahman: that is, there is no brahman other than self or ‘I am’. However, though ‘I am’ and brahman are one and absolutely non-different (abhēda), the thought or idea of brahman is different from what brahman actually is, namely ‘I am’. This is why Bhagavan sometimes said that God is not other than self or ‘I am’, and is therefore the only reality, whereas in other contexts he said that God is just a kalpana (a mental fabrication or figment of the imagination) like the jīva (the personal ‘I’ or soul) and the world, as he wrote for example in the seventh paragraph of Nāṉ Yār? (Who am I?):
Until we experience ‘I’ as it really is, all our knowledge of or belief in God, brahman, the Vēdas, vēdānta, advaita or any other philosophy or religion is just a collection of ideas, and as such all these things are just kalpanas or mental fabrications. Since we experience all such ideas as things that are other than ‘I’, in order to experience what ‘I’ really is we need to set aside all these ideas or thoughts and focus our entire attention only on ‘I’ or ‘I am’.
When we focus our entire attention only on ‘I’, thereby ignoring all thoughts or ideas of God or brahman, we are actually focusing it on what God or brahman really is. That is, since God or brahman is not a thought but only what we experience ‘I am’, in order to truly meditate on God or brahman we must meditate only on ‘I am’ and not on any thought — not even on the thought of God or brahman.
This important teaching of Sri Ramana is expressed by him most clearly in the first maṅgalam verse of Uḷḷadu Nāṟpadu:
Since it exists beyond all thoughts or ideas, and is therefore devoid of all thoughts or ideas, how can we think of it or meditate upon it? And how can we experience it by trying to think of it? Since thought cannot reach it, in order to meditate upon it we must just be it: that is, we must be without any thought, as it is, experiencing only ‘I am’. And since it is what we experience as ‘I am’, in order to meditate upon it or to experience it we just have to be without thought as ‘I am’ alone.
Since what is called ‘God’ or ‘brahman’ is just uḷḷadu or what is, and since uḷḷadu is what experiences itself without thought as ‘I am’, in order to meditate upon and experience God or brahman we just have to be as ‘I am’, thinking nothing but being clearly aware of ‘I am’ alone. Therefore thinking any thought such as ‘I am brahman’ will only take us away from what brahman actually is, namely the one thought-free self-aware reality that we always experience as ‘I am’.
For hundreds of years a widely prevalent belief among those who have studied advaita vēdānta has been that meditating on these mahāvākyas, particularly ahaṁ brahmāsmi (I am brahman), or on words that convey the same meaning, such as sōham (he is I), is the means by which we can experience brahman. However Sri Ramana repudiated this mistaken belief, and explained that when these mahāvākyas assert that ‘I’ is brahman, we should understand that in order to experience brahman we must experience what this ‘I’ actually is, and that in order to experience this we must investigate this ‘I’, attending to it exclusively and thereby ignoring all thoughts or ideas: that is, everything other than it.
A friend wrote to me recently asking why Sri Ramana advised his devotees to meditate on self but not to meditate on any of the mahāvākyas such as ahaṁ brahmāsmi or ‘I am brahman’, and added: ‘Since Brahman is Self, I have not understood the reasons for his disapproval of this form of meditation. Perhaps you could throw light on this point’. The following is adapted from the reply I wrote to him:
Mahāvākyas such as ahaṁ brahmāsmi are useful ideas, but just ideas nevertheless, whereas ‘I’ is that which experiences all ideas. We each experienced ‘I am’ even before we ever heard of the idea ahaṁ brahmāsmi, and whether or not we are thinking this idea, we always experience ‘I am’. Therefore ‘I’ or ‘I am’ is distinct from the idea ahaṁ brahmāsmi, just as it is distinct from all other ideas or thoughts, so if we are to experience ‘I’ in complete isolation from everything else, we should not be thinking ‘ahaṁ brahmāsmi’.
Though ahaṁ brahmāsmi is just one among the numerous ideas that we think during our life, why is it a useful idea? Before we come to the spiritual path most of us have some idea about God or brahman, and we think that God or brahman is the greatest of all things and therefore something quite different from ourself. This attitude towards God or brahman is what Bhagavan calls anya-bhāva (the attitude that God or brahman is something other than ‘I’), and in verse 8 of Upadēśa Undiyār he teaches us that rather than such anya-bhāva, ananya-bhāva (the attitude that God or brahman is nothing other than ‘I’) is the best form of bhakti (devotion) or best attitude towards God:
அனியபா வத்தி னவனக மாகுThe purpose of any mahāvākya such as ahaṁ brahmāsmi is only to change our attitude from anya-bhāva to ananya-bhāva: that is, to make us give up the wrong idea that God or brahman is anything other than ‘I’, and instead understand that he or it is nothing other than ‘I’. Therefore, if we have understood the import and purpose of the mahāvākyas correctly, we should give up meditating on God or brahman as if he were other than ‘I’ and should instead meditate only on ‘I’.
மனனிய பாவமே யுந்தீபற
வனைத்தினு முத்தம முந்தீபற.
aṉiyabhā vatti ṉavaṉaha māhu
maṉaṉiya bhāvamē yundīpaṟa
vaṉaittiṉu muttama mundīpaṟa.
பதச்சேதம்: அனிய பாவத்தின் அவன் அகம் ஆகும் அனனிய பாவமே அனைத்தினும் உத்தமம்.
Padacchēdam (word-separation): aṉiya-bhāvattiṉ avaṉ aham āhum aṉaṉiya-bhāvamē aṉaittiṉum uttamam.
English translation: Rather than anya-bhāva [meditation in which God is considered to be other than ‘I’], ananya-bhāva, in which ‘he’ is [considered to be] ‘I’, is indeed the best among all [practices of bhakti or forms of meditation].
That is, if we want to truly meditate on God or brahman, we must stop thinking of him or it at all, and must instead direct our entire attention towards ‘I’ alone. Since neither God nor brahman can be a mere thought, idea or belief, and since he or it is nothing other than ‘I’, in order to experience him or it as he or it really is, we must experience ‘I’ as it actually is, and must therefore investigate ‘I’ by attending to it alone.
So long as we think of or meditate upon the idea of God or brahman, we are reducing them to mere thoughts or ideas, and thus we are making them something other than ‘I’, even though ‘I’ is all that they really are. That is, like any other thought or idea, the thought or idea of God or brahman is something other than ‘I’, so if we meditate upon that thought or idea, or even upon the thought or idea ahaṁ brahmāsmi (‘I am brahman’ or ‘I am God’), we are meditating on something other than ‘I’, and so long as we are meditating only anything other than ‘I’ we cannot experience what this ‘I’ actually is (who am I or what is brahman).
As Sri Ramana says in verse 27 of Uḷḷadu Nāṟpadu:
நானுதியா துள்ளநிலை நாமதுவா யுள்ளநிலைThe source from which ‘I’ (the ego or root-thought called ‘I’) rises is only ourself, the pure adjunct-free ‘I am’, which is the true import of the word ‘I’. Therefore investigating the source from which ‘I’ rises means investigating ourself: who or what am I? When we investigate thus, the false rising ‘I’ will subside, and only then will we experience ‘I’ as it really is. Therefore only then will we experience brahman, because brahman is what ‘I’ really is.
நானுதிக்குந் தானமதை நாடாம — னானுதியாத்
தன்னிழப்பைச் சார்வதெவன் சாராமற் றானதுவாந்
தன்னிலையி னிற்பதெவன் சாற்று.
nāṉudiyā duḷḷanilai nāmaduvā yuḷḷanilai
nāṉudikkun tāṉamadai nāḍāma — ṉāṉudiyāt
taṉṉiṙappaic cārvadevaṉ sārāmaṯ ṟāṉaduvān
taṉṉilaiyi ṉiṯpadevaṉ sāṯṟu.
பதச்சேதம்: ‘நான்’ உதியாது உள்ள நிலை நாம் அது ஆய் உள்ள நிலை. ‘நான்’ உதிக்கும் தானம் அதை நாடாமல், ‘நான்’ உதியா தன் இழப்பை சார்வது எவன்? சாராமல், தான் அது ஆம் தன் நிலையில் நிற்பது எவன்? சாற்று.
Padacchēdam (word-separation): ‘nāṉ’ udiyādu uḷḷa nilai nām adu-v-āy uḷḷa nilai. ‘nāṉ’ udikkum tāṉam-adai nāḍāmal, ‘nāṉ’ udiyā taṉ-ṉ-iṙappai sārvadu evaṉ? sārāmal, tāṉ adu ām taṉ-ṉilaiyil niṯpadu evaṉ? sāṯṟu.
English translation: The state in which ‘I’ exists without rising is the state in which we exist as that [brahman]. Without investigating the source from which ‘I’ rises, how to attain the annihilation of oneself, where ‘I’ does not rise? [And] without attaining [this ego-annihilation], say, how to abide in the state of self, in which one is that?
In verses 29, 32 and 36 of Uḷḷadu Nāṟpadu he explains this further:
நானென்று வாயா னவிலாதுள் ளாழ்மனத்தாIn order to experience itself as brahman, brahman does not need to meditate ‘I am brahman’. Therefore if we meditate ‘I am brahman’, we do so only because we do not actually experience ourself as brahman. In order to experience ourself as brahman, we need to experience what this ‘I’ actually is, and in order to experience what ‘I’ actually is we need to investigate it by carefully examining it. That is, in order to experience ‘I’ as it really is, we need to attend to it alone and to nothing else whatsoever, not even to the thought of God or brahman or the idea ‘ahaṁ brahmāsmi’ (I am brahman).
னானென்றெங் குந்துமென நாடுதலே — ஞானநெறி
யாமன்றி யன்றிதுநா னாமதுவென் றுன்னறுணை
யாமதுவி சாரமா மா.
nāṉeṉḏṟu vāyā ṉavilāduḷ ḷāṙmaṉattā
ṉāṉeṉḏṟeṅ gundumeṉa nāḍudalē — jñāṉaneṟi
yāmaṉḏṟi yaṉḏṟidunā ṉāmaduveṉ ḏṟuṉṉaṟuṇai
yāmaduvi cāramā mā.
பதச்சேதம்: ‘நான்’ என்று வாயால் நவிலாது, உள் ஆழ் மனத்தால் ‘நான்’ என்று எங்கு உந்தும் என நாடுதலே ஞான நெறி ஆம். அன்றி, ‘அன்று இது, நான் ஆம் அது’ என்று உன்னல் துணை ஆம்; அது விசாரம் ஆமா?
Padacchēdam (word-separation): ‘nāṉ’ eṉḏṟu vāyāl navilādu, uḷ āṙ maṉattāl ‘nāṉ’ eṉḏṟu eṅgu undum eṉa nāḍudalē jñāṉa-neṟi ām. aṉḏṟi, ‘aṉḏṟu idu, nāṉ ām adu’ eṉḏṟu uṉṉal tuṇai ām; adu vicāram āmā?
English translation: Without saying ‘I’ by mouth, by an inward sinking [diving or piercing] mind investigating [examining or scrutinising] ‘where does [this mind] rise as I?’ alone is the path of jñāna [the practice that leads to true knowledge]. Instead [of practising such deep thought-free self-investigation], thinking ‘[I am] not this [body or mind], I am that [brahman]’ is [merely] an aid, [but] can it be vicāra [self-investigation]? (verse 29)
அதுநீயென் றம்மறைக ளார்த்திடவுந் தன்னை
யெதுவென்று தான்றேர்ந் திராஅ — ததுநா
னிதுவன்றென் றெண்ணலுர னின்மையினா லென்று
மதுவேதா னாயமர்வ தால்.
adunīyeṉ ḏṟammaṟaiga ḷārttiḍavun taṉṉai
yeduveṉḏṟu tāṉḏṟērn dirāa — dadunā
ṉiduvaṉḏṟeṉ ḏṟeṇṇalura ṉiṉmaiyiṉā leṉḏṟu
maduvētā ṉāyamarva dāl.
பதச்சேதம்: ‘அது நீ’ என்று அம் மறைகள் ஆர்த்திடவும், தன்னை எது என்று தான் தேர்ந்து இராது, ‘அது நான், இது அன்று’ என்று எண்ணல் உரன் இன்மையினால், என்றும் அதுவே தான் ஆய் அமர்வதால்.
Padacchēdam (word-separation): ‘adu nī’ eṉḏṟu a-m-maṟaigaḷ ārttiḍavum, taṉṉai edu eṉḏṟu tāṉ tērndu irādu, ‘adu nāṉ, idu aṉḏṟu’ eṉḏṟu eṇṇal uraṉ iṉmaiyiṉāl, eṉḏṟum aduvē tāṉ-āy amarvadāl.
அன்வயம்: ‘அது நீ’ என்று அம் மறைகள் ஆர்த்திடவும், அதுவே தான் ஆய் என்றும் அமர்வதால், தன்னை எது என்று தான் தேர்ந்து இராது, ‘அது நான், இது அன்று’ என்று எண்ணல் உரன் இன்மையினால்.
Anvayam (words rearranged in natural prose order): ‘adu nī’ eṉḏṟu a-m-maṟaigaḷ ārttiḍavum, aduvē tāṉ-āy eṉḏṟum amarvadāl, taṉṉai edu eṉḏṟu tāṉ tērndu irādu, ‘adu nāṉ, idu aṉḏṟu’ eṉḏṟu eṇṇal uraṉ iṉmaiyiṉāl.
English translation: When the Vēdas declare ‘you are that [brahman]’, instead of oneself knowing and being oneself [by investigating] what [am I], thinking ‘I am that [brahman], not this [body or mind]’ is due to the absence of strength [that is, lack of conviction or clarity of understanding], because that [brahman] indeed always exists as oneself [‘I am’]. (verse 32)
நாமுடலென் றெண்ணினல நாமதுவென் றெண்ணுமது
நாமதுவா நிற்பதற்கு நற்றுணையே — யாமென்று
நாமதுவென் றெண்ணுவதே னான்மனித னென்றெணுமோ
நாமதுவா நிற்குமத னால்.
nāmuḍaleṉ ḏṟeṇṇiṉala nāmaduveṉ ḏṟeṇṇumadu
nāmaduvā niṯpadaṟku naṯṟuṇaiyē — yāmeṉḏṟu
nāmaduveṉ ḏṟeṇṇuvadē ṉāṉmaṉida ṉeṉḏṟeṇumō
nāmaduvā niṯkumada ṉāl.
பதச்சேதம்: நாம் உடல் என்று எண்ணின், ‘அலம், நாம் அது’ என்று எண்ணும் அது நாம் அதுவா நிற்பதற்கு நல் துணையே ஆம். என்றும் ‘நாம் அது’ என்று எண்ணுவது ஏன்? ‘நான் மனிதன்’ என்று எணுமோ? நாம் அதுவா நிற்கும் அதனால்.
Padacchēdam (word-separation): nām uḍal eṉḏṟu eṇṇiṉ, ‘alam, nām adu’ eṉḏṟu eṇṇum adu nām adu-v-ā niṯpadaṟku nal tuṇaiyē ām. eṉḏṟum ‘nām adu’ eṉḏṟu eṇṇuvadu ēṉ? ‘nāṉ maṉidaṉ’ eṉḏṟu eṇumō? nām adu-v-ā niṯkum adaṉāl.
அன்வயம்: நாம் உடல் என்று எண்ணின், ‘அலம், நாம் அது’ என்று எண்ணும் அது நாம் அதுவா நிற்பதற்கு நல் துணையே ஆம். நாம் அதுவா நிற்கும் அதனால், என்றும் ‘நாம் அது’ என்று எண்ணுவது ஏன்? ‘நான் மனிதன்’ என்று எணுமோ?
Anvayam (words rearranged in natural prose order): nām uḍal eṉḏṟu eṇṇiṉ, ‘alam, nām adu’ eṉḏṟu eṇṇum adu nām adu-v-ā niṯpadaṟku nal tuṇaiyē ām. nām adu-v-ā niṯkum adaṉāl, eṉḏṟum ‘nām adu’ eṉḏṟu eṇṇuvadu ēṉ? ‘nāṉ maṉidaṉ’ eṉḏṟu eṇumō?
English translation: If we think that we are a body, thinking ‘No [we are not this body], we are that [brahman]’, will be a good aid for [reminding and encouraging] us to abide as that. [However] since we [actually always] abide as that, why [should we be] always thinking ‘we are that’? Does one [need to always] think ‘I am a man’ [in order to experience oneself as a man]? (verse 36)
Though meditating ‘I am brahman’ may help us to direct part of our attention towards ‘I’, it will at best divide our attention between ‘I’ and our idea of brahman, whereas what is required is for us to fix our entire attention unswervingly on ‘I’ alone. Moreover, if we think ‘I am brahman’, the ‘I’ in this thought is our ego, because whatever thinks ‘I am this’ or ‘I am that’ is the ego, and Sri Ramana says that even this ego is just a thought or idea, albeit an idea that contains an element of reality.
That is, the ego is the idea ‘I am this body’, the cit-jaḍa-granthi or knot that binds the conscious (cit) to the non-conscious (jaḍa), and the element of reality in this idea is the ‘I’, which is what is conscious (cit), whereas its unreal element is the body, which is just physical matter and hence non-conscious (jaḍa). Since we now mistakenly experience ‘I’ as a physical body, if we think ‘I am brahman’ we will in effect be confusing brahman with a body-bound ‘I’ or ego. Therefore we cannot experience what brahman really is so long as this ego thinks ‘I am brahman’.
If we meditate only on ‘I’, we will thereby separate it from all thoughts or ideas, whereas if we meditate on the idea ‘I am brahman’, we will thereby be perpetuating the delusive connection between ‘I’ and thoughts. Therefore, when we meditate on the idea ‘I am brahman’, we are reducing both ‘I’ and ‘brahman’ to the level of mere thoughts. That is, in the thought ‘I am brahman’, both the ‘I’ and the ‘brahman’ are mere thoughts or ideas, so we are just mentally equating one idea with another. How can such a mental activity be a means to experience brahman, the one infinite reality, which is beyond the reach of any thought?
Therefore, without giving even the least room to the rising of any thought (even the thought of God or brahman), we should meditate only on ‘I’, the source from which all thoughts arise.
After I wrote this, my friend replied, ‘I now fully understand why Ramana Maharshi suggested mediation on I, but not on Brahman. Although the Self and Brahman are synonymous from one point of view, I realise there is a subtle difference between the two, when viewed from the perspective of Self-enquiry’, to which I replied:
There is actually absolutely no difference between self and brahman: that is, there is no brahman other than self or ‘I am’. However, though ‘I am’ and brahman are one and absolutely non-different (abhēda), the thought or idea of brahman is different from what brahman actually is, namely ‘I am’. This is why Bhagavan sometimes said that God is not other than self or ‘I am’, and is therefore the only reality, whereas in other contexts he said that God is just a kalpana (a mental fabrication or figment of the imagination) like the jīva (the personal ‘I’ or soul) and the world, as he wrote for example in the seventh paragraph of Nāṉ Yār? (Who am I?):
யதார்த்தமா யுள்ளது ஆத்மசொரூப மொன்றே. ஜக ஜீவ ஈச்வரர்கள் சிப்பியில் வெள்ளிபோல் அதிற் கற்பனைகள். இவை மூன்றும் ஏககாலத்தில் தோன்றி ஏககாலத்தில் மறைகின்றன. சொரூபமே ஜகம்; சொரூபமே நான்; சொரூபமே ஈச்வரன்; எல்லாம் சிவ சொரூபமாம்.What he refers to here as ātma-svarūpa, śiva-svarūpa or svarūpa is only our essential self, the pure adjunct-free ‘I am’, which is what we really are. This ‘I am’ alone is real, and nothing else truly exists. Therefore everything that seems to exist is nothing other than this ‘I am’, and hence he says, ‘everything is śiva-svarūpa’, and that svarūpa alone is everything: the world, ‘I’ (our finite personal self, which is the jīva or soul) and God. But so long as we experience everything as everything — that is, so long as we experience the world, ‘I’ and God as separate things — they are all just kalpanas or mental fabrications. Therefore God or brahman is real only when he or it is experienced only as ‘I’, but is just an unreal mental fabrication when he or it is considered to be or experienced as anything other than ‘I’.
yathārthamāy uḷḷadu ātma-sorūpam oṉḏṟē. jaga jīva īśvarargaḷ sippiyil veḷḷi pōl adil kaṯpaṉaigaḷ. ivai mūṉḏṟum ēka-kālattil tōṉḏṟi ēka-kālattil maṟaigiṉḏṟaṉa. sorūpamē jagam; sorūpamē nāṉ; sorūpamē īśvaraṉ; ellām śiva sorūpam ām.
That which actually exists is only ātma-svarūpa [our own essential self]. The world, soul and God are kalpanas [imaginations, fabrications, mental creations or illusory superimpositions] in it, like [the imaginary] silver [seen] in a shell. These three appear simultaneously and disappear simultaneously. Svarūpa [our ‘own form’ or essential self] alone is the world; svarūpa alone is ‘I’ [our mind, soul or individual self]; svarūpa alone is God; everything is śiva-svarūpa [our essential self, which is śiva, the absolute and only truly existing reality].
Until we experience ‘I’ as it really is, all our knowledge of or belief in God, brahman, the Vēdas, vēdānta, advaita or any other philosophy or religion is just a collection of ideas, and as such all these things are just kalpanas or mental fabrications. Since we experience all such ideas as things that are other than ‘I’, in order to experience what ‘I’ really is we need to set aside all these ideas or thoughts and focus our entire attention only on ‘I’ or ‘I am’.
When we focus our entire attention only on ‘I’, thereby ignoring all thoughts or ideas of God or brahman, we are actually focusing it on what God or brahman really is. That is, since God or brahman is not a thought but only what we experience ‘I am’, in order to truly meditate on God or brahman we must meditate only on ‘I am’ and not on any thought — not even on the thought of God or brahman.
This important teaching of Sri Ramana is expressed by him most clearly in the first maṅgalam verse of Uḷḷadu Nāṟpadu:
உள்ளதல துள்ளவுணர் வுள்ளதோ வுள்ளபொருSince our consciousness or awareness of being, ‘I am’, cannot be other than what is (uḷḷadu), what is and our awareness of it are one and the same thing. That is, what we experience as ‘I am’ is both what is and our awareness of it. Therefore the very nature of uḷḷadu or what is is to be aware of itself, so in order to be aware of itself, it does not have to think. In fact, since its nature is just to be and to experience that it is (that is, to experience ‘I am’), it is completely devoid of thought, and since it exists within our heart (that is, in the innermost core of ourself) as our heart, it is called ‘heart’.
ளுள்ளலற வுள்ளத்தே யுள்ளதா — லுள்ளமெனு
முள்ளபொரு ளுள்ளலெவ னுள்ளத்தே யுள்ளபடி
யுள்ளதே யுள்ள லுணர்.
uḷḷadala duḷḷavuṇar vuḷḷadō vuḷḷaporu
ḷuḷḷalaṟa vuḷḷattē yuḷḷadā — luḷḷameṉu
muḷḷaporu ḷuḷḷaleva ṉuḷḷattē yuḷḷapaḍi
yuḷḷadē yuḷḷa luṇar.
பதச்சேதம்: உள்ளது அலது உள்ள உணர்வு உள்ளதோ? உள்ள பொருள் உள்ளல் அற உள்ளத்தே உள்ளதால், உள்ளம் எனும் உள்ள பொருள் உள்ளல் எவன்? உள்ளத்தே உள்ளபடி உள்ளதே உள்ளல். உணர்.
Padacchēdam (word-separation): uḷḷadu aladu uḷḷa-v-uṇarvu uḷḷadō? uḷḷa-poruḷ uḷḷal-aṟa uḷḷattē uḷḷadāl, uḷḷam eṉum uḷḷa-poruḷ uḷḷal evaṉ? uḷḷattē uḷḷapaḍi uḷḷadē uḷḷal. uṇar.
English translation: Other than uḷḷadu [‘that which is’ or being], is there consciousness of being? Since [this self-conscious] being-substance [the substance that actually is] is in [our] heart devoid of [all] thought, how to [or who can] think of [or meditate upon this] being-substance, which is called ‘heart’? Being in [our] heart as [we truly] are [that is, as our thought-free non-dual self-conscious being, ‘I am’] alone is meditating [upon brahman or what actually is]. Know [this truth by experiencing it].
Since it exists beyond all thoughts or ideas, and is therefore devoid of all thoughts or ideas, how can we think of it or meditate upon it? And how can we experience it by trying to think of it? Since thought cannot reach it, in order to meditate upon it we must just be it: that is, we must be without any thought, as it is, experiencing only ‘I am’. And since it is what we experience as ‘I am’, in order to meditate upon it or to experience it we just have to be without thought as ‘I am’ alone.
Since what is called ‘God’ or ‘brahman’ is just uḷḷadu or what is, and since uḷḷadu is what experiences itself without thought as ‘I am’, in order to meditate upon and experience God or brahman we just have to be as ‘I am’, thinking nothing but being clearly aware of ‘I am’ alone. Therefore thinking any thought such as ‘I am brahman’ will only take us away from what brahman actually is, namely the one thought-free self-aware reality that we always experience as ‘I am’.
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